{"id":4470,"date":"2010-09-24T10:47:18","date_gmt":"2010-09-24T14:47:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mookseandgripes.com\/reviews\/?p=4470"},"modified":"2016-06-19T01:24:27","modified_gmt":"2016-06-19T05:24:27","slug":"cordelia-strube-lemon","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mookseandgripes.com\/reviews\/2010\/09\/24\/cordelia-strube-lemon\/","title":{"rendered":"Cordelia Strube: Lemon<\/em>"},"content":{"rendered":"
Lemon<\/strong><\/em><\/span>\r\nby Cordelia Strube (2009)<\/span>\r\nCoach House Books (2009)<\/span>\r\n260 pp<\/span><\/pre>\n
I try to avoid comparisons to Holden Caulfield as much as possible. Such is the abundance of potential heirs to the great first person narrator of\u00a0The\u00a0Catcher in the Rye<\/em>\u00a0that it is\u00a0practically a clich\u00e9 to label them as such, and it usually leads to disappointment anyway.\u00a0Comparisons seem to\u00a0come every time a book\u00a0arrives where an angsty youthful protagonist\u00a0with a biting voice goes on and on about the troubled times and how pointless it is to do anything about it, to even care. I usually feel that the heir apparent is really nothing more than a wannabe, though; any similarities are illusions created by the author’s heavy investment in voice;\u00a0the books tend to\u00a0fail to create a thematically coherent, richly textured book. While my heart still lies with The Catcher in the Rye<\/em>, I think in Lemon<\/em> Cordelia Strube has written that thematically coherent, richly textured book with an angsty protagonist and a biting voice. Readers of Salinger will recognize the undercurrent of death\u00a0while\u00a0innocence\u00a0suffers in an ugly world.\u00a0I’m done bringing up Holden Caulfield now, because Lemon<\/em>, regardless of the faults I perceived, stands on its own, and I don’t want to lead anyone to believe it is just another derivative work.<\/p>\n
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To be honest, I’m not that patient with angsty teenage misery novels.\u00a0The reason I read this one first upon learning of the Giller Longlist is, in part, because I wanted to get it over with.\u00a0The cover shouts at me, and I assumed that by reading it I was more or less submitting myself to a spitting, bitter teen vent. I think a lot of these types of books sound the same; I’m prejudiced because I think the voice of an angsty teen is easy to mimic, though rarely feels genuine.\u00a0I was fully prepared to dislike this book. In fact, while reading it, I actually kept thinking that eventually it would fall apart in my hands, validating my preconceptions. But that never happened.<\/p>\n
Our disillusioned teen narrator is high school senior Limone, though most people call her Lemon. We meet her as she’s speaking to her school’s guidance counsellor:<\/p>\n
‘If I hadn’t been reading about a Jewish girl in Nazi Germany, I might have let Zippy kill me.’ This gets Blecher scribbling in her notepad. I knew it would.\u00a0She’s a psych-major-dropout-turned-guidance-counsellor, the only thing between me and another suspension.<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n
Zippy is Lemon’s adoptive mother.\u00a0Lemon doesn’t know her biological mother. And, after the near murder-suicide with Zippy, Lemon has been living with a surrogate mother named Drew.\u00a0Drew, who was the school principal,\u00a0is now agoraphobic after a student knifed her.\u00a0Needless to say, Lemon’s life is filled with turbulence, almost to an unbelievable degree. In fact, one of my main gripes about this book is that so much tragedy, both that Lemon can do nothing about and that Lemon brings upon herself, happens to Lemon in a short period of time. However, every time I began thinking “this is too much,” I was brought back into the world Strube was creating, and it felt real and painful. Despite the excess, Strube has control, and it still worked for me.<\/p>\n
So, now to explore some of the tragedy; it’s not just Lemon’s home-life. She sees tragedy everywhere.\u00a0 She’s fascinated by history and literature. Throughout the book Lemon offers biting critiques of women and men in literature from the works of George Eliot and\u00a0Charlotte Bronte\u00a0to Emily Dickinson. She throws out\u00a0historical anecdotes from all over the world.\u00a0People are ugly.\u00a0In particular, men have been ugly to women, and women have felt the need to excuse it. She doesn’t think the world has gotten any better. Her three moms have all been damaged by the men in their lives (Lemon’s father), and at school she’s witnessing the hypersexualization of teenage girls as she watches her friends and enemies:<\/p>\n
We used to talk about other things than sex and guys. We used to have confidence. We spun cartwheels and handstands.\u00a0We got A’s in math.<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n
Some of the problems come from a lack of love, others seem to have plenty of love but still end up seemingly missing “the security that love produces.”<\/p>\n
This is a\u00a0fairly miserable book, though the relief comes from a strange source.\u00a0 Lemon volunteers at the children’s cancer ward. There she gets moments where she doesn’t have to watch her friends “need to get attention from anything with a penis.” At the cancer ward she becomes very close to Kadylack, a young girl dying of cancer. Kadylak’s parents visit infrequently since they have each taken on more jobs so they can pay for Kadylak’s treatment. Strube creates a very loving relationship that illuminates the mother-daughter relationships Lemon reads about and experiences in her own life. The relationship goes both ways; here is a scene following one of the book’s most horrific events, an event Lemon narrates with a mixture of intimacy and distance:<\/p>\n
I push open the door and it’s Kadylak in the bed. She looks up as if she’s been waiting for me.\u00a0She holds out her arms and I hug her and start bawling, which is completely freaky for me. I don’t want her to see so I hide my face in the little curve between her neck and shoulder but then my ribcage starts to spasm and I’m making horrible sounds like I’m dying or something, and the tears are burning my eyeballs, which can’t be normal. Kadylak just squeezes me harder and we stay like that for ages. She’s even skinnier than before, I’m scared I’ll crush her. I want to tell her what’s happened but I know I can’t.\u00a0I thought I was dealing with it pretty well. I ate Shredded Wheat and had a shower and put on clothes and all that.<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n
Strube at one point took this mother-daughter relationship a bit further than I thought I was willing to go, but again she reigned it in and left me pensive rather than irritated. If she felt like she was risking it, for me it paid off.<\/p>\n
Lemon is a fascinating, conflicted narrator. In an effort not to give in to false optimism she tends to err in the other direction, making life difficult for herself and others. She brings up their faults — and humanity’s — to assuage any guilt she might feel.<\/p>\n
I’m <\/em>suffering intense feelings of guilt and loss about everything — Kadylack, Mr. Paluska, my mothers. I even feel badly about duping Lund and Huff, and about not giving a goose’s turd about anything that’s going on around me. You’re supposed to care about stuff in your immediate vicinity but I’m sitting around worrying about girls from Thailand being sold as cash crops, being shipped in airless containers to New York brothels. I worry about women being burned because their dowry money isn’t enough, or because some hothead husband decides they’ve been unfaithful, or getting stoned to death for not wearing a burqa. But boys killing boys in my neighbourhood?\u00a0A knifing in the school that’s got everybody in a flap? It happens.<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n
This book certainly won’t appeal to everyone. The blunt, disrespectful teen vulgarity that is incredibly unattractive in real life saturates every page in this book.\u00a0It works well, but it is hard going.\u00a0The misery on the page is the kind of stuff we don’t want to believe happens, and we certainly don’t always hope to read a book about it. Strube makes her readers suffer. I was frequently put off — but I was always deeply enthralled.\u00a0It was important discomfort.\u00a0I looked for many excuses not to like this book — the cover, the name, the misdirected bitterness, the sometimes seemingly contrived and\u00a0sometimes self-inflicted misery — but none of my misgivings prevented me from becoming emotionally involved.<\/p>\n
Now, for those who think perhaps I was simply emotionally manipulated, perhaps you are right.\u00a0I don’t think so, but I know others will feel differently upon reading the book.\u00a0I was always ready to bail if I felt like Strube was simply tampering with my emotions.\u00a0In the end I think she got a lot of it quite right. Lemon has a voice which I’ve heard before, and unfortunately her life and her responses to that life are all too real (though I hope not to familiar).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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